This is the hardest post I have ever written…and I am writing it for me as part of the healing process.
My mother, the reason I became a caregiver and the reason that StuffSeniorsNeed.com was created 3 years ago, passed away at 12:53am March 19, 2015.
Of course, I don’t have to write this, but it is part of my therapy, because I do not know of any other way to deal with my emotions.
And my emotions are flying, because it has been a roller coaster ride, the last three-and-a-half years in general and the last 8 hours in particular.
Mom hadn’t been feeling well, and I was scheduled to take her to the doctor on Friday to have some stomach issues checked out. She had been in bed for days and was on antibiotics with the BRAT diet to bind her up and get rid of her loose stool.
But my life fell apart when I got the phone call that she was going back to the hospital. Something just seemed different.
First, the ER doctor who called me spoke far more seriously than I can ever remember a doctor speaking to me about her health. Even after she first had her heart attack I don’t remember them telling me that she had only a 50/50 chance.
Secondly, when I got to the ER she wasn’t in the normal ER suite but in the “Trauma/Resuscitation” wing, which was another sign of trouble.
Third, the prognosis was never this grim. It came to the doctor telling me they were going to “give her an IV, antibiotics, Oxygen…and then pray”.
So after listening to this for 4 hours, and Mom being completely unresponsive throughout the process, I left to go home and try and get some rest.
I figured it was going to be a long day Thursday.
Two hours later, around 1210am, I got a call from the hospital that Mom took a turn for the worse and the nurse thought I should come back to the hospital before it was too late.
I immediately left, and I got there at 12:51am.
Mom passed at 12:53am. She waited for me!
So there is sadness, grief, regret and a thousand other emotions I am going through right now.
And as a result I will be taking a sabbatical from the website to take of far more important things, and will return on March 30.
Thank you. And thanks Mom for everything.